The idea of writing this post popped into my mind while I was in the bathroom. Have you ever experienced that? Because that’s pretty normal to me.
This dilemma is something I have always had to deal with ever since I started blogging. And this mostly happens when I just finished a really great book. It’s actually been a long time since this happened to me. So, when I had to deal with this dilemma again after quite a long time, because I just finished the excellent book that feel like it’s written solely for me like less than an hour ago, which is Bad Romance by Heather Demetrios, I knew I just have to talk and ramble about this. I have to get this out of my chest because the dilemma is real.
(I am warning you, this is just going to be a ramble-disguised-as-a-discussion blog post. Sorry, I know you deserve better than this.)
It’s the dilemma of choosing between writing a book review immediately or picking up and starting to read another book instead, after finishing a book.
I want to vent and ramble about this because it did not happen to me only once or twice. It happens A LOT. And again, the dilemma IS REAL. And the feeling of having to choose can sometimes be overwhelming, stressful or exhausting for me. SRSLY. Because sometimes, I literally just sit and waste my time thinking why should I choose this side or why not. And it can also be frustrating after, knowing that I wasted my time thinking only to come up with no decision at all.
For me, I just simply have to choose because I CANNOT DO BOTH. I cannot choose both. I cannot write a review and also start to give my attention to another book. If you are someone who can, I honestly envy you. (How to be you po? Chss!) I cannot because… I don’t want to give my heart in half. I want to be focused. So I can pour my heart out or just let myself be consumed by another world, by another story. Without having to think of other things. Without my mind wandering around.
Also, I don’t usually consider taking a break. Like, taking a break from these two options. Simply because I know that when I take a break, that equates to a high possibility of falling into the hellhole of a reading slump again. And who wants to fall in that hole?!
When I just finished a book, that usually means that I am in the mood for reading. So, I consider picking up another book to make use of the opportunity while I am still in the mood and can still focus on reading. But at the same time, I also consider writing a review immediately because of the feelings inside that I can still feel right after reading the book. Like what I’ve said, I always have to deal with this dilemma after reading a great book. And I’m afraid that, if I’ll let the time pass, I’ll be distracted and my thoughts and feelings, which are all like inside a balloon, will slip from my hands and fly away. And I won’t be able to get it back.
For me, both options are really good. If I’ll choose to write, great. If I’ll choose to read, great. However, that is also the main problem – both are good. If I’ll write, yes it’s great, but what if while or after writing my review, I suddenly feel like not reading anymore? Or, what if I’ll read another book and be completely dragged into its world that I start to forget what I feel about the last book I just read which review is I haven’t still written yet?
Like I said, the DILEMMA IS REAL.
Out of the uncountable times I had to go through this in my almost 3 years of blogging, I honestly couldn’t remember what I usually choose in those moments. But right now in my current situation?
I honestly don’t know.
That is why I am here, rambling.
It’s just hours after I finished reading Bad Romance by Heather Demetrios and my heart is still full – full of hate, sadness, pain, relief, hope and happiness – and to be honest, it’s overwhelming I might even cry while writing my review. The book is just really personal for me. It makes me feel so seen and understood – by the author herself and I found a friend in Grace and the other characters that it just overwhelms me. I want to write a review immediately because I love the book so much and I am truly grateful for the author that I feel like I owe it to her to write a good or at least decent review that will be able to make other readers know how great this book is for me and how it made me feel. And I know that I will be able to do that if I’ll start drafting now. And I MIGHT. Later. I don’t know. I want to calm my heart down first because I also want my review to be objective and not wholly subjective.
Also, I MIGHT start reading another book when I’m halfway into finishing my review. IDK, srlsy. I want to read another book because I don’t want to waste this time (lol but what am I doing, exactly?) and this mood where I still can focus on reading.
But all of these are just “might” because I am still conflicted.
What do you do when you find yourself in this situation? What do you choose, writing a review or starting another book? Or have you never felt this dilemma before?
What are your thoughts about the dilemma of writing a review vs. reading another book? Share your thoughts and let us discuss below!